I am victorious

Today I am reminded that all things work together for my good. Romans 8:28 says that all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose and I am called. Therefore, the trials and the testing are for my good.

I am faced with a situation that is not fair. I was sixteen when my brother was murdered. I had to live through what happened. I thought I was done with the grief of losing him. After all, I wrote the book “Victory Over Loss: Overcoming Grief.” I had put it behind me. I was healed. I was victorious! Everything was great. 

We know that the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy. Not long after my book was published I learned that one of the people that killed my brother petitioned the court for a new hearing because the Supreme Court found it unconstitutional to give a minor life without parole. At that time I realized how healed I was. I took the news well. I was at peace. I trust God with the outcome. 

We are now approaching the court date. I am learning that there are a lot of things I did not know and never processed as I was sixteen when he died and we did not have to hear the evidence at the prior sentencing since it was a plea bargain deal. It’s not fair that I have to process and grieve again but I am reminded that I am victorious and all things work together for my good. The enemy does not get to come in and steal my peace and joy.

The devil wants to take me back to the past and tell me that I will handle it the way that I did back then but he is a liar. This will not send me into depression and suicidal thoughts. I am not the same person I was then. God and I have come a long way and he will not forsake me now. I am going in and coming out victorious! No matter the outcome, I trust him. The process is unfair and painful but in it I trust Him! I will grieve again but I will process this grief with God and allow Him to mend my heart.